I'm on PrettyThin chat, a serious blast from the past. Anyhow I just lay in the bath for an hour, sentimentally reading Wasted searching for a kind of trigger, yes, actually looking for something to speed up this disease. Never mind that I ate 171 calories yesterday, never mind that I'm increasingly dizzy, never mind that I'm forgetting what it feels like to feel alright. My pure lack of patience is driving me deeper, I want to be thinner, now. I should be scared but I'm not. Where is the self protective part in my psyche?
xo
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